I don't like the pain.

I like the moment right after the initial pain. When the pain is still there, and is still strong, but it's fading. I like to feel the pain as it drifts away. I like trying to remember what the pain felt like and what it felt like to dissipate. I like trying to hold on to the pain as it escapes me. I like becoming absorbed in the pain. Overcome by it. I connect with it. And though I don't like its intrusion, I miss it when it's gone.